Today I found out one of my paintings won an award at a show in Kenosha, Wisconsin. The awards aren’t really being given out ’till Sunday, so I’ll be mum on the group and venue. It’s this one: “Aquarelle”.
So, what does this have to do with music? Here’s what: Today I was playing string quartets with some friends just for fun, and when we took a break I was talking about my art. When I got home, I began to think about the fact that at this point in my life, somehow, I seem to be doing the things that I was meant to do. This summer has been filled with painting, but as I was playing string quartets, I had one of those “I can’t believe I’m doing this” moments. It happens occasionally when I’m playing. Sometimes it’s “how are my fingers doing this?” and sometimes it’s “I’m really playing music, I’m a professional and I’m surrounded by this gorgeous sound!” It’s like an out of body experience. When I’m playing, whether it’s a solo, chamber group, or full orchestra, I have moments when I’m so totally filled up, and my body is doing this thing, it seems like I am the music. Yes, listening to music can bring me to tears, but there’s something about being in the middle of it that is magical. It’s a feeling that can not be described, only experienced. Soon, I’m going to be experiencing it a lot!